I wish you good luck. I like your blog.

thank you very much.

nice to meet you :)

oh where to begin. i don't even know. life is hard that's for sure. sometimes i would like to just climb inside this computer and have a virtual life.

Still trying to build the business, and it's doing fairly well.

Cila turned 9. wow how time flies. raise of hands on who just fell out of their chair. hehe

Evan turns 18 in about a week, OMG is the world ready for him. I'm almost certain i've pretty much sucked at raising him. lol

Sara, ahhhh the angel. What can i say, she went on a field trip to D.C. and came home with a kinda boyfriend. lol ahhhhhhhhhh lol

Got some things coming up soon, but i'll wait til they happen before i say anything. Just in case they don't pan out the way i'm planning.

Hope everyone is doing well

X

Hey Diana.
Kids grow so fast dont they, before you know it they are asking you to pay for the wedding!

haha you got that right

it's crazy!

Hi Diana.

hello Nigel :)

hope you've been keeping well.

i'm sorry i've not been here much lately. i've been up and down so much lately i'm not sure which is right side up anymore. i'll figure it out one day.

Think we are all like that sometimes . It will right itself soon honey.

:)

thank you

just a little update on my uneventful and boring life:

hmmmmm things never go as smooth as we would like for them to do they?
every time i think i have what i'm going to do planned out, someone says or does something to change my plans. oh how sometimes i wish i had a life all to myself. but that's being selfish isn't it? and i'm sure that if i had a life all to myself, i'd really want a life full of family and interrupted plans lol

Evan is 18 OMG and he is still living day to day. he keeps telling me he's getting his head in the game. guess it's gonna take a while to actually see that. i'm sure i've mentioned the tv pilot he was part of. it's airing this month on television here in NC. because of that, he is working with the same acting coach that Taylor Lautner used to have. i'm kinda syked about that. We have watched him since he was in Shark Boy and Lave Girl but Have you seen that boy in the New Moon movie. OMG is all i can say about that :)

Dear John came out in theaters, but they did cut Sara's part out. she wasn't too disappointed tho. she got to see two ppl she knows in the movie and not to mention she got to work with channing tatum on set all day so she's still happy she got that part.

Cila is back in Florida attending the only school she seems to be happy at.

People say i'm irresponsible and i'm too lenient with my kids. I just want them to be happy, experience life, is that wrong. i don't really over do it according to my standards. i have my limits, its just that no one else in my family would do it for their kids (could be why all their kids love me more tho, lol). so to them it's too much. (examples: letting them do their movies, go to schools that they like, do plays) i think it's because when i was a kid my parents were always to busy to do things for me. i don't want my kids growing up with those feelings. i want them knowing i was there to be the best i could. maybe when the day comes, they will be kind when picking out my nursing home lol

other than that, i'm struggling to keep my head above water. i feel at any moment i'm gonna drown. i've pretty much learned to stay off line when i'm not happy cause i say things on an emotional level that i shouldn't say.

i miss being here all the time. i think about you guys every day.

i've kinda found that sharing and talking about my feelings lately have helped me re-gain control over some issues and have helped my heart in its stuggle to be pain free :) it's almost back to where it should be. i'll be one happy camper when i finally get to that point!

Please post more often, you are missed online.

i'm working on it genie :) thank you for the encouragement

Hurry Back Diana.

It's great to see you...we miss you lots so please come back soon.

currently in florida returning cila to school. i drove down all day sunday, so i heard that i missed all the Valentines day fun. Would have been here otherwise.

I hope everyone had a great day with lots of fun.

I will be helping the hmmmmmm i guess i should call him the ex now. not sure how many of you know about my being divorced yet, but i guess it's not a big secret now. cant remember if i've even blogged that yet. the circumstances surrounding it are complicated and we are still supposed to be together just not married, but i want my own life. sometimes i feel like i'm being selfish, but after everything i've done and lived with over the past 20 years (god that sounds like such a long time) i think it's time i get to live life for me.

anyway, i will be helping him paint his place and do a little work for a couple days and then i will be heading back to NC. I've gotten back into the schools so i will be subbing when i return and will probly end up getting another part time job somewhere. the plan is to save some money until may when evan gets out of school. then i will come back to florida where i can be with cila and rent an apartment somewhere so she can still go to this school. does any of this sound confusing? well that's my daily life. i wish i had things more under control.

other than that the weather here is so much nicer than the snow and frigid cold i just left

do you guys like reading this stuff? is this what a blog is?
it is rather nice to have somewhere to empty your head at times :)